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" What does it look like to be a good friend ?" This is a question I ask myself a lot. What is friendship about? There are so many questions we can ask ourselves about friendship. The yolk that Jesus puts on us is to love Him and love others. Friendship is about showing another person God through yourself while loving them with a love that is totally giving. Some times that's hard though. Some of us give so much we question when someone is going to give back to us, but that's not what friendship should be. Annie F. Downs describes friendship as "being a house of prayer, and a hospital at the same time". Showing people that they can come to us, that we will always love them and be there for them, so that they may see the love of God through us. Showing some one that we do not always have to agree, but we will still love and encourage them no matter the point of disagreement. To love someone the way the Lord calls us we must be our authentic self. When we ch

Something I have been struggling with is worth. I can't seem to find out why I feel so unworthy and why I keep trying to convince myself why God should not love me. I know that I am a sinner, and I do not deserve His love. Not a single one of us does, why should He, a perfect, powerful God love us? He chooses to love us though because He wants us. No matter how much we do not like ourselves, or how broken we feel, God wants us. He longs for us. This school year has definitely been much different then last year. I have lost a ton of friends because of the selfish things they have wanted to do. I have been hurt by some of my closest friends that I never thought would hurt me. And I have realized that I cannot trust the people I always thought I could. I always knew God could speak to me. I have heard Him before, but I never knew He would speak such powerful words into my life last semester for me to write down to find this semester when I was struggling so much. He knows all and kn

If I had all the answers to life that would be great. If I knew why bad things happened to great people I would be content. But I don't understand why good people die in unfortunate ways, and I don't know why it has to happen to someone who was so harmless. Recently my dad dragged me to Alaska. Not wanting to go of course I still went. I was very weary how things would go just me and dad in Alaska for over a week. Well I got there late that night and the next morning dad was dragging me to work. I so didn't want to go sit in an office all day, but I just didn't know what God had planned for me. My dad had a secretary named Lavonna, and she was a pistol let me tell you. She was a sweet, caring woman, but she didn't take crap from anyone. She would do whatever it takes to take care of someone even someone who has hurt her. She was a strong willed woman who worked hard. Over the week Mrs Lavonna and I got really close. We would ride around and do things for dad, but

Today in Convocation I heard a song and it said "Lord Your love it runs so deep every breath You breathe in me You don't give up on me and as long as my heart beats I know You will carry me You don't give up on me." This song means so much to me because I used to be so prideful and self-righteous that I though God had given up on me and I was a lost cause. That not even Jesus could forgive me and cleanse me of my sins. I know a lot of people that also say," I'm too far gone." But do they know that by saying this they are saying, "What Jesus did on the cross is not big enough to cover my sins."  Do you realize what you say when you say Jesus would not even forgive you for the things that you do. You are disrespecting God and telling Him He is not powerful enough. God is ALL MIGHTY! He is so powerful He does not even need us, He wants us. God does not give up on His children, not a single one of us. God pursues us in the purest way there is. He

For so many people it is so easy to worship and praise Jesus when everything is going right. When life is good and you are being surrounded by your friends and family and things seem to be going how you want. You are happy and for you it is easy to praise God and talk about how great our Father is.  But what happens to that joy and happiness when something goes wrong? What happens when something you think is so unfair occurs?  When a friend is taken out of your life unexpectedly? Some times when bad things happen we find ourselves wanting to blame God and we start to question Him. We do not stop to think how God was in the situation we only focus on the tragedy that occurred.  Yesterday some of my friends went hiking. They just wanted to enjoy a day that God had blessed us with. While hiking one of our friends fell an died. Faith Helbig was a sweet, outspoken, spunky, lively girl. I had the honor of getting to know her. She was a light to many. Her heart was beautiful and she wa

We all have those moments where we finally realize the answer to a question we have been having for so long. That moment honestly can break a person down. For me it brought me to my knees tonight. I have been reading a book written by Heidi Baker called "Compelled by Love" and this book has been wrecking my life. The book has been changing how I think about a lot of things. It has been teaching me that everything I do should be done out of love. Me alone as a person, I have nothing to give. I do not care if my name is known, I just want to see the glory of Jesus Christ be known on this earth. We should be so poor in spirit that we have nothing else to do but to lean on and listen to God. We should be laid down lovers for His kingdom. It talks about how all we need to do is be willing to give up everything we have for the One who gave it all for us. This book has caused me to start evaluating what I have been doing more closely. One thing I have been noticing myself doing